So I just got an e-mail about Casey's death and people are signing it showing thier respects.

I just couldn't bring myself to reply.

I guess I have a problem with being insincere. I don't want to say something and sound like a moron because of it.

I just... I think I've been immune to this death. I didn't know him that well. And I guess I'm still not over my uncle's death. And I never really had emotions with that one either. So I've become emotionless and trying to be normal. But I know that I'm going to have a breakdown. Probably tomorrow when who knows what's going to happen at school. I'll be fine and then... I won't be.

I better just not be a normal day at school. I don't think we'd be able to cope with having classes as usual and things like that. People are going to want to talk about it. The school better let them.

seeyas.

--jana.x